Diary, here it goes. All about my life.

Well, just started off with my revised obu just now. when i look back and try to redo it, i don't know why but my hear doesn't feel good. making me think of asshole who "destroyed" my obu. i feel "fan" doing it, again. like so demotivating and at the same time feel scared i will fail again. touch wood.

this time, i am doing the obu all alone. no one with me to depend on, and i am not quite used to it. doing everything alone. but i kinda like it, to do it alone. i want to be more independent anyway. i am starting to dislike being dependent on others now. like as though i am a baby.

edc is going to start soon. this friday. now i really need to catch up with my studies and obu. alot for me t study and catch up with things. everything needs to be settled asap. next month, needs to hand in resume, obu, termination of hostel, etc. i don't think i am going to take CIA though. i think it is best for me to work first, and get my acca membership.

i actually want to venture into baking field though. my dream is to open up a bakery. so maybe CIA is not my thing.
honeslty, i am actually scared to go out and work. i can't imagine how my work life will be. but mum said there is nothing to be scared of. i need to start from somewhere anyway.

last week, i read yj's mail to ej, on june. it really make me cry when i read it. i didn't know yj hated me so much that time. mum was even very disappointed with me as her daughter. those sentences i read really hurt me alot. even until now those sentences are in my head, and i cant forget them at all.

mum said i have changed alot this 2-3 years. changed to be a different person. i know that too.
i actually don care about my family at all. i m selfish and only live in my own world. i don even do housework or hostel work. i feel terrible. i know i am a lousy sister and daughter. i don't know i only care about my studies and nothing else. is my life consider as meaningless as i only deal with studies?

lately, bin doesn't talk to me much too. she talks more to yx in college. i told ej this and she is not surprised with it. i dy "fan" bin with my bloody stupid break up problem last sem, nearing to finals, and still tell her that the asshole still send me mails, etc.
i thought she wants to hear about my problem, but now, i don think so. she is sick of it. if i were her, i will feel sick of it too. it is like as though my life is full of ppl's problems and nothing about my life.
sigh. what can i do now? friends come and go. perhaps she thinks i neglect her since i got km now. but the fact is i am not that close to km and he is only my friend. in my heart, i will choose my friends over him anyway. sigh.. i don't know la. i always have friendship problem every year. guess i just need to deal with it, and don't care so much about it.
if ppl don't like me, i can't do anything. i still need to be me and go on with my life.
i was just wondering, if my friends are envy of me, and my life. this sem, i have 2 ppl courting me, out of sudden. are they envy of me?

lately i don't even feel like taking pics much with friends. i don't want to insist to take pics with them, with me inside in every pic. they might think i am very full of myself, or think that "i know la, you very pretty, and want to be inside in every pic".
i don't know why but i have the feeling there are some of my friends who are envy of me. alot of ppl told me i m cute, pretty, attractive, smart, which every guy will want. but i don't think so at all. i a not that smart or pretty. i am blur, too honest and straight forward, dungu, getting to be fatter, etc. nothing good or great in me, why do they want to be envy of me right? this is impossible. now i dunno if bin got go sing k with my friends or not. i did tell her last week that don go sing k without me. if she really go sing k today, then i know that she doesn't care about me dy. nah, don go then nvm. i go with soemone else next time.

i know i have a bit of looks. i think i am too much of myself anyway. i am always scared of what others will think of me. like as though i want to be prefect in everyone's eyes, when i know there is no such thing as perfect in this world.

I AM WEIRD!

lately, i did know things about sg too, her life. i don't know but she is my motivation and inspiration. she is so independent now, and so wanna be a successful person in life. she got everything she wants in her life. she is so lucky. not like me, fail f5 and obu. =(
i dunno if i make such a big fuss when i failed. ppl always tell me that there are alot of opputunities in my life since i am still young. silly me right?

this sem is my last sem, i really want to graduate. i really want to work hard and pass all my last 3 papers and obu. all at one go. i really need to focus already. i don want to turn back like last time. i must not be affected by anything, anyone esp that asshole who always send me those stupid apology mails which are all lies and bullshits. i don even wanna keep in touch with her anymore. i must be like sg, who ignored all my sms and calls last time. haha.
i must not be soft hearted. so i will use sg's strategy although it did hurt me last time, to have her to ignore me and don want me as her friend. perhaps i am just a bad friend, that's why no one wants a friend like me. eg. i broke my promise to bernice last time, i guess she doesn't trust me anymore now. sigh. my fault.

i really need to stop online too much dy. i need to utilise my time fully now on studies and obu. i have stop blogging anyway except this as my diary. nothing much to facebook now anyway. so bored with fb, all full of kepoh stuffs and ppl's lives which is totally none of my biz, like what mum said. plus stop thinking and worrying about km too. swt!

okay. stop writing diary for now. back to studying mood.

STOP BEING FULL OF MYSELF!

Smile! =)

Passed my P1 for PT2. Thank God! But too bad, only passed 2 out of 3 papers, no brownies form you! =( =(

P/S : Currently listening to The Only Exception (Paramore) and Teenage Dream (Katy Perry)


P/P/S : I smiled all the way, after reading your message, "Don't jia jia, I know you miss the brownies" :D :D
(I understand what jia jia means! HAHA!)


♥ the ☆★

1U

Shopped around 1U today, and I just realised that it's freaking big and has alot alot alot of things to shop for! I'm lovin' 1U now. Haha!
But too bad, came back empty-handed. =(
Saw and tried few nice tops and shoes, but didn't buy. Perhaps today is NOT the right day. T.T

From Somerset Bay! (ignore my panda eyes, I didn't sleep well late night, due to the thunderstorm. SWT!)
♥ floral designs lately. Hehe.
But these are too mahal. I need to save $$$ first. xD
Unless someone wanna sponsor, then you're SUPER MOST welcome! XD

My fav Thai Sticky Rice with Mango! :D

MOONCAKES!
I just ♥ MOONCAKES! Any types, you named it.
I can actually eat a whole mooncake after dinner. LOL

Had this at my grandma's place yesterday. The mooncake skin is so colourful, and that attracts me. LOL. Plus it's with dragonfruit filling too, not bad! :D

Aunt bought Shanghai Mooncakes!
I wonder what is the difference between this and Ham Tan Soh. Hmmmm....

Mooncakes from Marco Polo! :D
The mooncakes from here are actually bigger than others. O.o
Yesterday's morning Dim Sum there was really yummy! Haha.
First time trying out Pudding with Almond Juice too. At first, it tastes weird to me, but then later, it tastes not bad though. It tastes a bit like Taofufa. Hehe!

Mooncake Festival is around the corner! This Wednesday! Wee wee wee~~~
Hmm...Wonder if LYG has any gathering plan this Wed night.
But I think my mooncake date on Wed is ON~ :D :D

Sunday is soon over, but I'm looking forward to Monday and the following days anyway. =D
Oops, I gotta go makan dinner! Dad's calling. xD
Have a great week, people~
Be happy always! ^.^

Bini came across my mind. Hopefully she is well when I see her tmw!
Smile more, friend! =) =)

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Kicked my sis OUT! xD

Finally, Friday is here! And it's soon gonna be over. xD
That's coz I can't wait for tmw. Hehe! I want my Dim Dim Sum~ :D

Woke up early in the morning, 6a.m coz need to drive to college for a wholly-day-class today!
It has been years I did not wake up this early at home, and it reminds me of my school days when I'M FORCED to wake up that early. LOL
Drove back, and my driving skills made my sis have heart attack! Too fast, perhaps? HAHA!

Thank God I passed my P6 PT1. :D
Thank God today's P7 class ends early. I almost fall asleep, again. Hehe! And bcoz of early dismissal, I'm glad that we can meet up and chat today! ^.^

I likey this! Pinkie, like my braces! :D
Lots of thankies! It's really sweet of you got this for me from the trip, and surprising too which make me smile this big > :D
Hopefully, I pass all my papers for PT2. I want brownies from you! :P

Lovey sing K sessions with my family, man, with the Gleeks! xD
I ♥ "Total Eclipse Of The Heart, Like A Virgin, and Gives You Hell" from GLEE~
And OMG.........The way we sang it was like.....OMG! =D

In the newwie car! *winks winks*
It's not too big for me I guess?
Nah, it comes with practices! Haha. I'm gonna drive it! =P
I'm making EJ envy! xD
8923 again I guess, wee, my number~!! :D

Gotta go now, he is bugging me to oi oi again. Haha!
Nights, world~ =)

P/S : Love The Way You Lie (Emimem ft. Rihanna) and OMG (Usher)


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GENTING once again!

Up up up to Genting! :D
Last year's Raya, my family went there to for a day trip, this year's TOO! Hahaha...
It's really very cold, but I don't know why this round, I can stand the cold weather and don't need to wear jacket all the time. *weird*

It has always be my family's holiday gathering,ever since I was a kid. Always Genting, Genting and Genting. Haha! I know the place quite well too. XD
And yeah, we had our relaxing moments for 3 days, 2 nights at the biggie SUITE which can fit all 16 of us!
The last time we stayed here was like.....4 years ago, after my SPM, to celebrate New Year. Hehe!
This time.....without my granny and my twin. =(
I feel kinda weird, without them. Used to have fun with them, especially when we have our granny to play cards with us and with her voice around, but now.......just as memories in me.
I miss both of them.

@ Mushroom Farm.
All of us lookie cute huh? XD

Okay! I have beed longing these for years! Finally I got them into my mouth and tummy! Muahaha.

Durian Tarts and Durian Bombs! Just my favourite and that makes the whole car and suite smell of durians. HAHA. Thanks to me. :D

I think I ate 4 bombs! xD

Sliced pork! :D

I just ♥ being around with my biggie family! They will just make you laugh non-stop, due to their random-ness! :D
This is what makes the family ties stronger right? Everyone making time for a family gathering once awhile. Bcoz of this, I get to hang out with my cousies. They are just so cute and adorable, and make you feel so comfortable to talk with, and get really crazy sometimes, despite our big age gaps! :D
While playing "Fish, Crab and Prawn" or "Black Jack", we can just talk whatever we want, and from those words we spoke out, we can sing a song out of it, especically GLEE OST! XD
Lost in the games is an okay for us too. No temper, no anger. Just have fun and that's all that matters!
We actually have many SING K sessions, not to forget dancing sessions too from my crazy sis and Cheng. They can even dance in the kitchen. LOL
It's not very bored there though. Played PS2, watch drama, read a book, chit chat and keh poh with my mum and aunts, walk around and have freshie air, and snack alot of coz! LOL
And we took lotsa pics too! :D :D :D

It is actually my first time doing "monkey face" and...
I ♥ this pic the most! n.n

I can't do this wei~ *faint*

Basically, there are 4 rooms in the suite and this is how the dining room looks like.
Big right? Super!
Adults having their dinner, boys in the room playing PS2, girls...muahaha!
Watching our leng zai in a korean drama~ xD
(My cousies are actually addicted to the drama, bad influence me! LOL)

POPCORN moments! :D
My cousies love popcorn so much that they actually brought 3 packs and pop them in the microwave!

This is the living room, and also the place I slept with my 2 cousins. HAHA!
I ♥ it anyway, all the sofa and comforter for myself. Hehe!
But I was always the first to wake up. *doink*
Thanks for the sunshine!

Time to go gai gai~ :D

The girls @ The Chocolate Factory (it just reminds me of someone once I entered).
I know EJ is gonna miss us, after seeing this pic! =P

GLEE spirits, again! XD

I-City @ Genting! =)

The PINKies! :D
(I didn't realise I brought all pink and purple clothes for the trip, including my backpack! @.@)

At first, I thought it is a PIG!
It's NOT! *faint*

PASTRIES! *jumping up and down*
OMG! They just lookie lovely, and I feel like trying every each of them!

I ♥ the scones, esp with lotsa butter! A must-have in Genting :D

Today was my 2nd time into the casino! :D
But guess what? I was being stopped at the main entrance, and the guard actually asked for my IC.
Good thing is I don't look like 21, means I still look young. Muahaha
Bad thing is I still look chidish! *faint*
So, which one is better? @.@


I ♥ the fireworks the most! The BEST fireworks I've ever watched! ^.^
I was just standing right in the middle of the fireworks and although I need to held my head 90° and it hurt my neck, but I still enjoyed that moment, and don't want to miss any fireworks at all.
They are just like falling stars dropping on my head, and I just feel like catching all of them, and see them shine every night.
I just ♥ watching them as it gives me the feeling of happiness and blissfulness,
and I hope one day, my dream will come true! I'm waiting for that moment! =D

P/S : Currently listening to Without Words (Park Shin Hye)


P/P/S : I don't know how to think, what to think, where to start thinking, and why am I thinking so much.

Own Declared "2 Months of Holidays"

A post full of pictures! (More pics in FB!)

These are the pics of what I did for the past 2 months of my very own HOLI-HOLIDAYS!
It's gonna be a long long post, hope it will not make you feel bored. Hehe!
Last 2 months were really adventurous for me! Mana-mana also pergi~
(Indirectly means making me pokai now!) :D

Went to Sing K quite a number of times too. Muahaha!
And I feel like wanna sing my lungs out now too! xD

Every Wed is all about MOVIE, MOVIE AND MOVIE AND............KOREAN DRAMA! :D
It's a movie day for us, esp after our audit class. Haha! I actually watched alot of movies for the past 2 months, anywhere. Too many nice movies, that's why. xD




KUIHs......... *saliva-ting*



Next... Malacca trip with Ken, Chian, Kathy and YX. We have been planning it since June holidays and we only went there on the 24th July? O.o This trip really made me FAT! LOL. I ate pretty alot and it's all about eating and eating and eating, non-stop!
Another best part is when Ken sings in the car.
OMG! His singing.....really gave us "NIGHTMARE" XD

I miss my durian cream puffs!

LOL! We finally found the famous Tandoori Chicken, thanks to Chian's GPS!
Funny thing was, we can't wait to try it and we ended up eating it in the car itself! XD



Okay! I bought the MOST! But NOT all these lah, of coz. :D

BKT and I-City! :D
Since I am the LYG's Event Manager, I planned I-City. Hehe!
Yeah we reached there, and it's a half failure plan, thanks to the rain! Argghhhhh~

BKT @ Klang! (making me hungry now!)

Kinda cute that we took pics with the umbrellas. :P

Avatar @ I-City, according to Kang Wei~ XD

"Studying Moments" with Joyce and Bin.
Yup, we gathered at the library to study for our PT1, and we ended up taking pics around the college for the whole day! Thanks for Bin's camera! XD (What?! 160 photos? dang!)

Naughty Joyce! Her very-own monkey bar! She is so ganas! :D

Another gathering right after our PT2! @ Sushi King! Which reminds me of Joyce's method for her sushi pricing! Haha

And the next day is Condo Gals' gathering. Haha! We missed out EJ~

My new friend, Serene! :D

Had this Kindoori ice cream and choc brownies with Bernice, while we were waiting for her friend to come and fetch us from Pyramid and we actually waited until 12 midnight. *doink* But it's not a bad thing also. Can date Bernice, discovered this delicious, rich brownies and talk whole lots of craps with her. XD

Went for Deloitte Tax Challenge Stage 2 last month. We entered Stage 1 just for the fun of it, mana tahu, me and Joyce made it to Stage 2. O.o
"Best" thing was, I didn't even study anything, going into the hall, totally unprepared. That's coz I planned to really screw it. xD

My Chauffeur. Hehe! Lookie super smart right? Totally! :)


Some pics taken during P1 class @ LT8 with Dino and Tupai. =P

President of LYG's Big Day!

YX treated us all Japanese food @Klang on her 21st bday! The food was super duper nice, and of coz, expensive!

And we bought her BR cake too!

More pics will be uploaded later. :D
Songie's 21st is coming soon~ Next week! Another LYG gathering for us! Wee~

ACCA Social Gathering 2010!

We're both greens, single! Bin, mine is not complicated okay?
That yellow thing is not a wristband, so not counted! XD

The 4 of us only. Joyce and Shane ffk. =(
Forget about the food, but this year's performances were the BEST!
Love the crowd, the noise, the "high-ness" from everyone! LOL

FOOD MADNESS!

I'm lovin' this part! Pastries from The Loaf @ Pavillion. *yummmssssssssss* The pastries are so yummy, and the prices are yummy too, duh! Just looking at them really makes me wanna learn how to bake all these! OMG...I miss baking! =(

Gelato! =D

Durians! from Pahang. Haha! But not from Bernice! *dang*

I'm craving for shortbreads lately, and Joyce helped me buy 1 whole sweet stack from Cameron Highlands! (Love at First Bite!)
It melts in my mouth! Awesome! :D

Batik cookies and Lemon Cheese cookies from Shen Hsing! :D

My cousies made this cute lil mooncakes!
It's nice if eat them freshly from the oven! :D

My first time eating Korean food~
Finally........ My Bim Bim Bab. Haha! :P

Coffee Bean's Mango and Peach Yogurt Ice Cream and Triple Decker Cheesecake.
I ♥ the almonds more. LOL
(Tell me, how can I not be fat with all these food? Faint!)

Souvenir from Ken. Honestly, I didn't expect this from him, and it's really touching to know that he bought us souvenirs. =)

6/9/2010 - Went out for a lunchie and movie with KM @ Pyramid after his P5 PT2, since I have nothing to do in hostel as I have no more classes to attend already.
We watched Grown Ups and this movie really made me LOL alot! :D
The lil girl who sat next to me in the cinema was really cute. Said HI to me. xD
KM, thanks alot for the treat, and the jokes that still making me want to laugh everytime I think of them, esp the King Kong ones. LOL!
Hopefully the cookies/cake I bake next week will be successful. *finger crossed*
(I'm craving for the brownies from you. Hehe!)

Last Tuesday, only left me, Joyce and Xuan in the library. And we 3 were kinda hungry, so we went to Apartment's Convenience Store and we're gonna have an Early Small LYG Mooncake Gathering~ Random case! :D

Chatted with the owner of the store, who was making mooncakes that time, asking about mooncakes process. Good thing is she's Hakka. Haha!

It's not very hard anyway to make them!
After looking at how lovely she made the Mixed Nuts mooncake, yup, I bought Mixed Nuts and Xuan bought Pandan Lotus Snowskin.
I found myself a partner in LYG! The President of LYG, of coz! Haha!
Just found out that we both have lots of similarities. Maybe coz we have same blood type. LOL

Another random dinner with Xuan, Bin and Kathy @ Manhattan!

It's always us 4 together for outing. *dang*
We will be having another one joining us. Haha!
Initially, Kathy forgot to sms me about the outing.
(Wouuttttttttt? She forgot about me?! *&^%$#!@#$%^&*)
We ordered Seafood Platter and yup, we 4 cleanly left the plate empty. :D

Oh yeah, I passed my P2 and P3! *happy me!*
Totally relieved that I passed both papers (pretty shocked after knowing my marks!
Honestly it's very unexpected, coz I thought I screwed both papers, badly and I was very very worried about my results, as I really want to pass both so so so muchie!) :D
My twin checked the results for me again, as the hostel internet connection is really bad. I was praying non-stop, so hard while waiting for her to inform me my results. I actually skipped my P6 class bcoz of this, how amazing! My first time in the 3 years in ACCA! xD

Was jumping up and down after knowing my results. Imagine me doing that. LOL!
Another moment for tears of happiness! :D :D :D
I'm gonna make sure this sem is going to be my very LAST SEM!
It's time to study hard after my own declared "2 months of holidays"! Haha!
But not now of coz. After my Raya holidays ba~ :D

P/S : Currently listening to 你不知道的事 (Lee Hom). I ♥ his new album this round. Maybe it's coz I watched this movie - Love In Disguise. Thanks to Bernice! :D
Can't wait for tmw! ^.^



P/P/S : I miss the moments of laughter.