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I was really touched yesterday, for what he did for me.It was sweet, even from the very beginning.
I ♥ the gift alot, first time I received it. Thanks alot! =)
Thanks for making me laugh too, everytime we met! =P
But I am really afraid I will hurt him more later.

This semester, seems to be very different from the previous ones.
Everything that happened to me, are just so new to me, and honestly I'm very surprised too.
I'm happy that I can forget the past because of all these.To the eyes of others, they are totally good things for me, like what my friends said.
But I really don't know if they are.

Why those around me must be so nice to me?
(I know I shouldn't be complaining about this fact, but bcoz they are too nice to me, that's why I'm so afraid I will hurt them eventually.)

Why look at someone like me, when there are others?Why they are so caring towards me, when they are others who need more care than me?
Why choose someone like me?
I know they can't answer me these, only God knows.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
But I have hurt one person already this sem, and I am afraid I will hurt another, him.

Sometimes, I hope they don't treat me so so nicely. Just DON'T.
Sometimes, I even hope I don't exist, and let me be forgettable to them.

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Honestly, I hope I'm just not worthy to him, perhaps by this way, I won't hurt him.

Can't wait to sing K with them later. ^.^

P/S : Hope everything goes on smoothly, as before. *fingers crossed*
God, please don't let me hurt them anymore, not anyone.
Please let me be the one that can make EVERYONE around me be happy.